I feel a bit lost. Like a puzzle piece missing from it's box. I had been feeling very positive and like things were getting on track for me. Now, it seem as if things have stalled out and I don't know how to kick start it up again. I started a new job, I'm the newbie there and I often feel like I don't get taken seriously. I actually works to my advantage sometimes, but I've worked retail in this industry for 13 years now so I have a LOT of knowledge that feels like it's wasting away in my little brain. I've added more classes to the calendar but many aren't even making. With the exception of one rockin class, I usually only get 2 people per class. Today I had a two hour class that has taken weeks of planning and preparation and I made $8 after it was all said and done. The only way to make any money is to get more people to sign up. I don't know how to reach out to all of the people who used to take my classes and let them know I'm teaching again. On a more personal note, I felt like I was starting to make some good new friends. Now I feel like things have kind of fizzled and I'm feeling a bit lonely. I know it's up to me to keep things going, but I guess I don't know how. How to reach out, how to make time, how to make it all happen. There are several relationships in my life that I really want to grow and nurture and develop into something...something more. I know these things take time. Maybe I'm impatient, maybe I'm too hard on myself. I just feel like I need a little more, a little kick start, a little something...
I purchased a lease on a space in a craft boutique today. At this point I really feel like I'm spending more money than I'm making and that's scary to me as it's been a rough period financially for way too long now. I'm trying really hard to make something happen. Hopefully something will work out. It has to, it just has to.
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What was it you told me? That if you put it there you'll get positive thoughts on it? Something like that. (Damnit. I wrote it down, what you said, and now I can't find it to remember it properly.) It was something about putting it out there and positive thoughts and anyhow...
ReplyDeleteIt's too bad that there's not some record of people who took your classes that we could poach from SA. Mass email, etc. If it helps (probably not much) I tell everyone who asks me about the supplies and whatnot (where'd you learn to do that? type questions) that you're at 911 and the woman to see!
Also, the friends thing is hard to maintain sometimes. I'm in the same boat as you but firmly believe that any small bit of contact, effort, is worth it and goes a long way. I think you have to just keep building on that little bit of effort, you know?
Wow. Was I all wordy or what?
Creating and maintaining friendships when you have little ones is much harder than it needs to be. At least, when you are a little "different" from the norm, which I think we both are.
ReplyDeleteFor what it's worth, I very much want to hang out with you more regularly, um, as long we we stop getting y'all sick. Hah! I think the potlucks need to be a monthly thing!